Surgery

Today, I had to get 7 teeth removed.
4 were wisdom, and 3 were extra ones that didn't get to grow much, but would have if I didn't have any other teeth. Which would be an awesome thing if nobody brushed their teeth, and would lose them all the time.
But I do, and I don't, so it's not an awesome thing.
I keep having to spit up blood. It tastes kind of good.
I can't stay vertical for more than 10 seconds.
I have a headache.
I have a lot of teethaches.
I can't eat anything more substantial than applesauce, so I'm starving.
This is just generally not a fun experience.
Laying in bed, typing on my laptop....

Buuut w/e.
Peace out, just felt like blagging today.

Weirdness

My father no longer lives with me.
It's a difficult thing for me to grasp.
But, hey, that's how life rolls.

I realized today that the reason that I don't get the grades is because I have no short-term motivation, nor can my family afford to give me any, really. So it pretty much sucks. But I've decided that I will try harder in school, so that I can give my mom and dad money when they need it, and so my kids will be able to go to college without so much hassle. It just bites that I have to be coming into my prime right as a gargantuan financial crisis hits.
Boohoo.

I started listening to more ska recently.
And I "got" Panic!'s two albums.
The first one is way better.
I think that I want to do stuff with music, like maybe produce somebody's album or something. Not for profession or anything, but just for fun, and so I could feel important.
That would be fun.

Something really sad that I was talking to my dad about the other day was when he brought up the topic of his dream job.
He would've loved to be a music producer, and I really wish he got to do that.
But things just didn't go that way for him.
So he didn't get to accomplish his dream.
I really hope that that doesn't happen to me.
I want to do what I want to do.
I know that sounds redundant, but I really hope I'll be able to not regret my decision for a career.
I want to do something ambitious.
I just noticed the other day how un-ambitious my dad's job is.
He works for the government, and hasn't been legitimately promoted in a while.
I want to do something with lots of opportunity.
But whatever, nobody really reads this anyway.


"Who could love me, I am out of my mind..."

Holy Fucking Shit

Oh my God.
Just, oh my God.
I never thought that this would happen in my family.
It's just so weird.
After 20 years.....
My parents are getting separated.
I don't know what to think about this.......
It's so weird.